Confidence

It's funny how when you start to feel better about yourself and your confidence starts to come back how your mind set changes. For me anyways. For example I could care less about cute workout clothes. I would rather spend my money on something else, but now that I am in the zone,and  feeling great, I want cute workout clothes. Not the expensive ones, I usually always find amazing deals at Ross:) I think some of it has to do with that I go to the gym now and ALWAYS see at least one person I know, and I feel good. When I feel good, I want to look good.
Speaking of the gym, I have ALWAYS felt so uncomfortable working out in the weights. There are just so many men and I feel like I don't push myself as hard. I remember the first week I joined, I would do my cardio, then go home and do weights because I just didn't have any confidence to go over to the weights. Now I don't give a crap. I walk over to the weights and get it done. Last Friday night, I went to the gym and it was pretty dead. I was doing upper body and a group of 4 guys were maybe 10 feet if that from me just looking, and talking. Normally I would just walk away, but I didn't care. I turned my music up and got my bicep curls done, and I did it hard. I finally decided that I can't be afraid of people or a machine, otherwise I will never get to my goal. I still don't like to go over to the "free weights" just because there is always a ton of people over there, so I just go into the room that the classes are in and use the free weights in there. I always see women in there doing the same:)
Years ago when I was in high school, we had this gym that had a women's only section. It was in a totally different room. It had all the cardio and weights you need. I LOVED it. They also had a co-ed section, but I never used it. I wish the gym I go to now had a "women's only" room :) Oh well, it is what it is. I am so happy my confidence is finally coming back. It's amazing how much better I feel inside and out:)